The Fling!

This was an article written by me on June 27, 2005! It was very relative to the then! But just as I was discussing htis with someone, I found this old thingy in my inbox! So, posting it again!

The Fling...!

Life is fun with its ups & downs, the tipsy-curvy way, the curved & the straight roads, sometimes a turn around, sometimes a roadblock! It's LIFE...

My life was same. Just that it was like that of white water, full of hustle n bustle. It was like "Bich bhawar me gud gud gote khaye.." And, happened my first fling when I was in fifth standard. The fling, which has sustained since then. Rather, it's seen a tremendous growth in last few years. Its, THE FLING...!

It's nothing else but my fling with Vipassana! This is the story of my affair, which transformed my life from __________ to __________. I purposefully avoid to use any adjectives in the blanks as they'll become relative to my perspective. Thus, after going through this story, may you decide on your own, what fits there.

Darshan Mundada.. The most unwanted! I was one of the most undesired as a child. Except for my family & a few very close relatives, it was all a negative approach for me. I remember times, when except for my Dad, I had no one besides. And, it was nothing of anyone's fault. It was my own negativity. A very hyperactive child, I could never sit at a place for more than a few seconds. No words or hands or sticks or any other means could stop me. My initial school life was worst. Not a single day passed without complaints. At times I was debarred, at times I was punished, at times, sent back home! It reached to the peaks, when school just wanted to throw me out. I had to change hands. It was a roadblock! But whatever happens, happens for good. At that point, I had my first crush.

Coming from a family where culture dominates, and parents being disciple of Vipassana, I was also recommended for the same. Actually, I already had my first introduction with the practice when I was just in 1st std. I'd attended a few 1 day children shibirs in Pune. But I frankly accept, the attraction at that time was not of the exercise but of the hot puri & batata bhaji with amazing mango murabba! The taste still rolls on my tongue. Later, on the insistence of Shri Asawaji, I did a 3-day children's course in Igatpuri in presence of Guruji Shri Satyanarayanji Goenka. It was a turning point. For the first time it so happened that, I was not blamed for doing anything in 3 days of the camp. It thus developed a sense of belonging in me..

A significant change started. So much so, that people openly started asking me, how come you are behaving well? Many other factors blending together, it gave a facelift to me. But still, the boat was not out of rough weather, as the captain was not yet stable. Again, last few years saw a few steep slopes n sharp curves in life. And up came a pending promise, The words I'd promised to Dadiji n Dadaji, that what so ever may come, I'll complete a 10 day Vipassana course once. After returning from USA, on priority I went for it. It was much more of a patient approaching the doctor, with no knowledge of the doctor's capacities & in turn, no confidence, neither in himself nor the doctor.

December 14 to 25, 2004.. The 10 days, which lead to a complete transformation. It lead to a life which I always wanted, full of satisfaction & peace. Satisfaction in what I am, what I have, what is me. Peace in being. It's just a feeling inexpressible in words. But all this said & done, it was not an easy task to complete a 10-day course. It was just the promise & will power which kept me going. First 5 days were just observation, as the whole theory was contradicting my trust in God n supernatural powers. Then came the evening of 6 th day when, during Guruji's cassette, he spoke about the correlation between both, The God & The Exercise. I could hear the Gita which I'd learnt since years, but for the first time, I did understand the true meaning. N, my perspective towards Vipassana changed! Changed forever, changing me forever..

Friends, that's the start of a story.. I know, this is not a platform to discuss individual, but still I narrated my part. Just for the sake, that may you all try once for this art! Its nothing extra, neither does it contradicts anyone's basic thought process. Its just logic to our living! I did it, & I know what difference that makes, may you all get an opportunity to experience the bliss..

(June, 2005)